Listening

All of You is more than enough for all of me, for every thirst and every need. You satisfy me with Your love, and all I have in You is more than enough.

All of You, who God is, all of His character, all of His ability, all of His being, all of Him - love, mercy, grace, goodness, providence, holiness, peace, patience, gentleness, tenderness, honesty, reality, justice, the list could go on throughout eternity - is more than enough for all of me - my weakness, frailty, neediness, insecurities, inadequacies, dirty little secrets, worries, my junk, the desires of my heart, my loneliness, heartache, my humanness.

You satisfy me with Your love - satisfaction is found only in You, not in the friends, strangers, movies, music, books, activities, busyness, hobbies I try to fill my life with. I have searched the heights and the darkest depths; everything else leaves me wanting. And what fulfillment, what peace, what comfort and security Your love brings - to know You and be loved is enough.

And all I have in You - salvation, eternal life, peace, joy, hope - is more than enough.

If the above is true, why is it so hard to let You be more than enough, even merely enough, when that is all You want from me - my heart, all of it, to lean on You, trust You, be real with You? When You asked me to let You be more than enough, why I wouldn't let You be more than enough, I was (and today still am) so quick to say, yes, that's what I want too...but I still want x, y and z?

I'm sorry I keep trying to wriggle free from Your embrace. Jesus, rain on me with love until I drown.

I miss you, friend. Hope you are well. Talk to you soon.